I wake up tired from yesterday
spent holding up the sky;
there’s seldom time to pause, or play
or ever wonder why.
I send the children off to school,
another laundry load
is done, while I feel like a fool
still struggling down the road
of holding up the sky each day
for each and everyone
who ever walks my weary way
afraid to walk alone.
And is that why I carry on
still holding up the sky
although my work is never done
perhaps until I die?
I only have myself to blame
when all is said and done
it’s put up or it’s shut up
until I put my foot down.
I feel I’ve really said enough
so please don’t ask me why
it seems some people’s lot in life
is holding up the sky.
© Experimentsinfiction 2021, All Rights Reserved
I have a ‘caretaker’ personality…
I think this stems from my mum’s death when I was a young child. Since then, I’ve always wanted to put things right and try to ‘fix’ people. While this may seem admirable in the intention, it can lead to a whole raft of problems when you fail to realise that the only person you can really fix is yourself. It’s something I’ve been working on in recent years, and I am making progress. But that tendency to hold up the sky for everyone is still there, and I do have to ask myself, is it because I’m afraid to be alone?
Of course I don’t begrudge my kids a lift to school, or fresh laundry; the point about those lines is, I have to do all of this whilst holding up the sky, which makes it harder. Until I remember to take care of myself! I changed the penultimate line which originally read ‘it seems a woman’s lot in life…’ but this didn’t seem fair, especially in today’s world, I think this lot can fall to both men and women.
Sharing with dVerse Open Link Night live, where we will be reading our poems…
The Featured Image is from Blake’s Illustrations to Dante’s Divine Comedy, this particular illustration being ‘The Inscription over Hell-Gate‘ (if you look carefully, you may recognise the familiar inscription, albeit with a slightly different wording. I found this via the wonderful Blake Archive. I believe the image is in the public domain, but if anyone knows differently please let me know – no copyright infringement intended!