Growing through my pain: A ‘Pantanelle’

I do believe I’m growing through my pain
though sometimes when the knife twists I still wince
I will not stoop to hate myself again.

Though sometimes when the knife twists I still wince
actions or words of others are their own
I’ve learned this and I’ve practiced ever since.

Actions and words of others are their own
as my own treasure house is my own soul
and knowing this, I face my fears alone.

As my own treasure house is my own soul
I have fought long, I have fought hard to keep it
and in self-keeping still my dreams are whole.

I have fought long, I have fought hard to keep it
you cannot have it now, e’en if you would
it’s my reward, and only I shall reap it.

So as I take my leave of you, refrain
from telling me my pain has done no good:
I do believe I’m growing through my pain
I will not stoop to hate myself again.

 © Experimentsinfiction 2021, All Rights Reserved

I may have invented a new poetic form…

I set out to write a villanelle, but I’d forgotten the words, so it morphed into a pantoum. However, it has the same metre and number of lines as a villanelle, and ends correctly, so it looks like I’ve created a new hybrid form, the ‘Pantanelle.’ It sounds like a type of fancy French lingerie, doesn’t it? Still, it’s better than ‘Villantoum.’

Why not have a go yourself? Rules:

  • 19 lines: 5 tercet stanzas followed by a quatrain.
  • The first and third lines of the first stanza should be the final couplet of the poem.
  • The middle line of the first stanza becomes the first line of the second stanza, and this pattern continues until the final quatrain.
  • The rhyming scheme is therefore ABA BCB CDC EFE FGF AGAA.
  • Please link back to this post if you do try one 🙂

Featured image from The Song of Los.

On the subject matter, it’s Mental Health Awareness Week in the UK and Mental Health Awareness Month in the US. We all have our own particular struggles which we go through and grow through. Sometimes we’re afraid to speak up about them. This should not be the case. Mental Health Awareness Day should be every day.

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  1. A powerful poem–and a wonderful new form. I may give it a try at some point. It was great to hear you read, and I hope you’re feeling better soon, Ingrid. 💙

  2. I love your pantanelle. I’ve copied the format and have saved it and will link back to this post if I use it. Not sure how you can get it added to the shadow poetry site but you might look into it. How very very awesome to have created your own poetry form. You are Fab!

    1. Thanks Lisa! I didn’t know about the shadow poetry site…will look it up maybe if some other people attempt it 😅

      1. Their website (which I use ALL the time!)
        http://www.shadowpoetry.com/resources/wip/types.html

        from their FAQ:
        Q: I have a poem that I’d like to add as an example to one of the featured poetry forms. How do I add it to the web site?

        A: If you have an accurate example of a poetry type featured on the Shadow Poetry web site and would like to see it displayed, please submit the poem through our contact us page along with your contact information. We will review it to see if it is a good fit for our site.

      2. oops, here’s the right question from the FAQ

        Q: I have invented a poetry form. Will you display it on Shadow Poetry?

        A: If you have invented a poetry form and would like to see it displayed on the Shadow Poetry web site, please submit the form with a detailed definition and several examples to us through our contact us page. We will review the form to see if it is a good fit for our site.

  3. Sometimes I think we should just tell our story and poetic titles and format bedamned…..but that’s just me being grouchy!! lol Great poem.

    1. Haha well I did break the rules so it turnes into something else! I like to use forms sometimes but more often I write free verse.

  4. Intriguing morphing of several poetic forms–and it works so smoothly. Listening to you read this doubled its impact.m I do think d’Verse should do a prompt on “Pain”.

  5. Seems like a incantation, and one that we should all be reminded of the treasures of our soul that are ours alone. I’d love to try this poem out sometime; challenge accepted.

  6. Such a powerful, poignant rendition of the form, Ingrid! A Pantanelle.. there is a wonderful ring to it. Loved hearing you read tonight.. you added to the emotion of the poem- mental health is something we should all give more consideration to, especially during these troublesome times. 💝💝

  7. Though sometimes when the knife twists I still wince
    actions or words of others are their own
    I’ve learned this and I’ve practiced ever since.

    You got it right Ingrid! It is not any other’s business what we do and say. We maintain that right and freedom with dignity. A wonderful new form to emulate, Ma’am!

    Hank

  8. It was great to hear you share you poem and your son’s as well. You are right, we do grow from our pain if we hope to move forward in life! Well done.

  9. An empowering poem, Ingrid. Even when we are not consumed by the pain, physical or emotional, we can draw courage from having lived through it. As you know. 💓 Your description of your new poetry form, the “Pantanelle,” made me laugh.

  10. our pain and wounds don’t define us even when they take us to the depths of despair and “the knife twists I still wince
    actions or words of others are their own”.
    Wow, Ingrid🙏❣️💖

  11. It’s inspired, the villanelle that morphed into a pantoum and became a Pantanelle, Ingrid, which I must try soon before I take a break. I’ve saved it to my ‘new ideas’ folder. So what if it sounds like a type of fancy French lingerie, it is so much better than Villantoum! Back to your Pantanelle. I love all the little shifts every time the knife twists, which moves the poem on to its defiant conclusion. I especially like the lines:
    ‘As my own treasure house is my own soul
    I have fought long, I have fought hard to keep it
    and in self-keeping still my dreams are whole.’

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